Hope, faith, fears, dreams, words

Some nights, I lie awake.

Hoping that these thoughts would fade.

Wondering, if anyone hears me,

Is my message even getting through?

Words screaming in my head.

I can feel it in my veins.

Sleep becomes wishful thinking,

And faith cant seem to shake this feeling.

Sometimes, I wonder what I'm doing.

Lost in the space of my thoughts.

Am I trying too hard or just not trying hard enough.

I'm staring at blank white pages.

Dreaming with my eyes wide open.

Sometimes I am afraid,

Is this the part where I shut my eyes,

And close the pages of my mind.

My words lost in time,

Only to be forgotten, in time.

Am I doing my all,

Or just not much all.